In Cebu and Wants to Change the World
It is my fifth day here in Cebu and it's a Saturday. Wonder why I didn't go out to check the night scene here on weekends and decided to torture myself in the confines of the Internet Cafe? You probably might think that I'm such a dependent on the web. It is correct, to an extent but it has reasons. One, I don't have friends in here whom I would hang out with. I didn't get a message from my former sup Dell who happens to live here already. Kat is in Negros and won't be able to swing by. Gary hasn't replied to my messages (maybe she changed numbers). Two, there's nothing to be seen here anyway. I'm not a party-goer and I would prefer a weekend alone. Besides, that's not what I came here for. Three, I need to be online to check out my friends and probably get a free psychiatric consultation. Four, this update.
As mentioned, I've been here for five days. What has happened in that period of time? In summation, almost nothing to say that I am ready to go home. I'm halfway my vacation/jobhunt and every minute counts. My pursuit of work here in the city is becoming unlikely. Maybe you're confused as to why I am looking for a job here. No, I have not left my job in Manila and I'm very very happy with what I'm doing at the moment. I believe that my job as a supervisor there is already turning its way up and I couldn't be happier. But I guess it's one of those days when a banana was on the floor and I slipped on it...leading me to another destination. Things could just change just like that, and I didn't realize that my world is getting bigger.
It was about the same time last year when I was faced with the same situation. My friends would know what happened to that endeavor and now I'm still enjoying the fruits of my risks and hardwork. Now, I am yet in front of another challenge harder than the previous one. But still, I was very willing enough to take it in despite that uncertainty of its results. My energy is slowly being depleted as the days go by and I haven't gotten any progress. I, however, am not losing hope. I still won nonetheless, although not completely.
Going here in Cebu has been an ongoing idea of mine for almost a year and I believe that it would define my adulthood for some reason. I am finally on my way to realizing that dream. I guess I have realized that dream. The main reason why I went here in the first place is now in my reach but then the world is not always nodding a yes to what I do. Good intentions doesn't always mean agreeance.
This is a difficult, but not an impossible task. Right now, I'm just pressured because it will be only a matter of days until I get back to Manila, and I still got pending issues here. But one thing's for sure, my spirits are not dampened. I'm going to see this dream onto its completion. I have come. I have seen; and I will be conquering this challenge. I know I'm strong and I have all the motivation in the world to make this dream come true. I want to change the world right now so everything will be fine.
Sometimes I even surprise myself of the things I do. Stupid? I guess. But I have to go through this...so I can be happier.
